its like when you have a nightmare

i know that there are so many people less fortunate than i. i know there are starving children in africa, people who have no homes, no family, no one to love. i know there are people who arent blessed with friends like mine, and girls who are farther away from their loves than i.

but sometimes, sometimes its just hard.

i know what you're thinking: life is tough lizmae. man up, put the pads on, get on the football field. however, you can't tell me that it doesnt get hard for you either and you can't tell me sometimes you dont feel like quitting.
and its so much worse when you have a bad day and all you want is just that one hug. all you want is to sit in that lap and say all that's wrong and just be held and listened to.
its difficult to go to the same person everytime you have a problem or a bad day for so long and then one day, you have to start going to someone else, because the first person isnt close enough to come to your rescue.
its like when you were a child. its like when you were a child and you had a nightmare, or you got sick. everytime, your mom was there, to tell you it was just a dream or to hold your hair as your stomach convulses. and one day, you have a nightmare and you cry out, and she isnt there. it's just like that.
i dont mean to whine, or to complain. i just needed to put it all in words. you readers of blogs can understand that.

but i dont want to end so negatively.

in all my frustration and despair, i have a college family that surrounds me. i live with three amazing girls that never hesitate to lift my spirits if im feeling down. i have a best friend, who is probaly the best support system that i could ever have. i have beautiful, wonderful friends in my department who love me and are always there if i need them. i have great professors and even better mentors. not to mention an amazing God who loves me with a love so perfectly that it doesnt matter what happens in my days. he is also always, always there.

and for that, i am thankful.



until next time;
know that you are loved. ♥